Do you know the feeling when you come to re-watch one of the films you hold dear only to realize it’s actually not all that good? That it’s actually pretty cheesy and pretty bad? It’s a pretty heart-breaking experience and something you certainly don’t want to be happening to your favorite films! So you can imagine my bewilderment when this was exactly what happened to me recently when I caught The Notebook on TV.

For many years I have considered this film to be one of the most romantic stories, something that deeply resonated with me and my idea of love that can overcome any hurdles. Yep, I am the extremely romantic soul who believes there’s this one person who’s worth all the fighting for.

But what I was seeing this time, seemed like a completely different film or perhaps like if somebody took my rose-tinted glasses off or something. But then again, the last time I’ve watched The Notebook was when I was about 17 years old and a lot has happened since… and I’ve SEEN A LOT since, too.

I know this film has become one of the highest grossing romances ever, but I was suddently watching film full of the clichést clichés (I know that word doesn’t actually exist) and throughout which I was constantly cringing! It was just so embarrassing, so uncomfortable to watch… just so bad!!

… and I was kinda devastated!! 😀 Such a desillusiment!

Cause those were feelings not too different to those I’ve been having while watching another of Nicholas Sparks’ film adaptations – Dear John, which I’ve always considered the worst of all romantic films. Listening to those lines… just makes me wanna kill myself!

So I certainly wasn’t expecting this while watching my favourite, The Notebook. I did remember the super awkward almost-sex scene, and I did remember the ‘say I’m a bird’ part, too. (I mean, really…?!) But there was more.. The first half of the film is pretty much full of these moments..  Luckily, it gets better in the second.

And LUCKILY, this film has Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams whose  performance in particular still leaves me speechless even today. She’s so amazing! And the chemistry between her and Gosling… oh well… on-screen chemistry goals right there!

Truth be told, despite being taken aback with the cheesiness of the film that I used to love so much, two days later, I still couldn’t seem to get it out of my head. There’s just something about it. Something… that still touches my heart like none other.. despite all of the cringing.

And perhaps, it’s just the magic of Ryan and Rachel and their own young love. Perhaps, if Dear John, had them too, instead of Channing Tatum and Amanda Seyfried who both have zero charisma to me, and if I saw it at the same age as I’ve seen The Notebook, I would have loved it too….? Hard to say, cause when you look at it closely, the stories are so damn similar that I’m actually scared to think about it… 😀

But yeah, I do believe The Notebook deserves its place in the film history simply because of the union of these two wonderful actors who made our lives a bit more special – at least some part of it.

And you know what? That line “I don’t paint anymore. I used to love to paint.” and the part where Allie says “I feel like completely different person when I’m with him.” … I think those words are the reasons I can’t get it out of my head…

Do you have a film you used to love and then after many years later came to a similar realization? Was it painful? 😀 Let me know in the comments! 😉

xx